It's already May 19th and thank God that semester 6 done already!! Ye-Ay!! :D
And well, something important just happened last wednesday..
I'm gonna have my last internship for about 4 months and the campus decided where I will go and they announced it last wednesday..
Guess what, I get a place that I do really wanna go...! (:
I was so scary that I would just stay here and didn't go anywhere, but see what God had done in my life!
Even though I am surely know that He knows my heart, He knows my wrong motivations, and so on, yet He put me there! (:
B.A.T.A.M.... I'm already in love... hahaha...
But, well I kind of forget did I tell you that I'm going to Medan on July 5th-9th?
The problem is that I have to be in Batam on July 4th and my trip started on July 5th...!
And I already bought the ticket, and yeah, I don't know what to do right know...
I'm so thankful that God put me in Batam and I don't wanna blame Him for putting me there...
I just don't know what to do...
Like, I pray to God and say "Let Your will be done.."
But can I still hoping for something that I really want?
I kind of worry that my hope seems like forcing God to do so..
But I don't mean it... I just really wanna God to do His will, to give His best, but can I still hoping for something that I want?
I am reminded about whatever that gonna happen, God is sovereign and He is sovereign for my life..
But one question pop up in my mind like, How can I really let God reign in my life?
I trust Him, but does that trust still allow me to have hope?
Then, is that hope still show that I trust Him? Feel like when I hope, it means I don't trust Him because I say I trust Him for everything, yet I still hoping for something that I really want...
Just, faith without deeds is vain...
How to apply it?
Even though hard and confusing for me, I just trust Him that He will give the best for me..
Well, I cannot hide it from Him, even though I tried very hard to hide my want, He must see it.
Yet, I really need the right motivation and let Him reign, rule over my life...
His plan never fail... (:
Just, grand me heart that trust, surrender, and fully obey You...